About Life

2008-07-04T16:54:00.000-07:00

Yoz Yoz Yoz..
I still can't imagine myself blogging around here. But since I am here, I might as well just leave my words behind. Just treat it as graffiti.
I just dislocated my left shoulder last Monday during a interunit game. Ouch. The pain was immense and the doctor who fixed my hand back was cute. Hmmm.. I shall not reveal her name as what her fb has, she doesn't want any patients to find her on fb. Ironically..
One month of status means I just can't do anything in camp. And that new PC of mine threatened to send me to OVL if I continue to insist on playing.
But in the end, he promised (well, a PC's promise is not exactly a good promise) not to send me to OVL. So glad that I wont be going considering the many many things that happened.
Till date I still believe that I will stay single my whole life. Don't ask me why but I somehow just feel that way. Perhaps it is a severe lack of confidence in my part but hey, just let nature takes its course. If I'm deemed to remain single, remember to take me to wedding nights since I cant have one of my own.
Maybe I don't know how to sweettalk in front of gals.
Today is Saturday and I am still in camp doing duty waiting ofr things to happen although I do not hope for things to happen.
Just feel bored and there is nothing to preach about. Bye.
等下一个天亮，世间的一切是否会变得更美好?

2008-04-26T10:18:00.000-07:00

Well well well.. As expected, nobody read the last post.
Very good. Very good.
Never mind, sometimes it is just fun to talk to myself and see all my words appear on the screen. Just like magic. Wow.
Today Man U lose to Chelsea.
Macham like voodoo, everytime i watch this fixture, Man U will lose.
Micheal Ballack sucks, so do the 2 linesman. All should die.
Ooops.. Die is such an easy letoff. All should just have one leg amputated, so at least they still can beg for food in MANCHESTER. lol..
Some people in this world should really fuck off and die. Maybe people feel this way too towards me, but I don't care. Some people should really just die. Really. Why is the world full and crowded of people who shouldn't even exist in the first place.. lol..
Haiz.. Maybe shouldn't be so aggressive. Nowadays many 'eat full full nothing to do' people just sit there and read blogs and catch and charge me for some stupid comments.
Better not talk about any classified stuff. Later caught kanna db not like some 'priviledged' onli sign extra..
very unfair lahz this world..

2008-04-19T19:20:00.000-07:00

Wooo..
Too long haven't enter lo.. Almost forget my password.
Been in NS for a year lohz..
English getting worser and worser.. lol..
Who ask my camp de people de english all so chui de..
Got alot of shit the past month.. Dun feel like talking about it..
Then you ask me why i type this for right? since I dun wan to say anything.
The reason is very simple. I just wan to use the i net and not let the others use it. Then I remembered that Winson told me I haven update for a long long time le.. So I just came in to look look and have fun.
Since nobody bothered to read, so there is no point in blabbering and blabbering about some stupid issue.. not everybody is e falling snow so thick skinned de..
haha
Call me Cpl Tan..
Have you ever wondered what does the ranks mean? lol.. If you have.. this means that YOU REALLY HAVE NTH TO DO!!!
lol..
well actually cpl is a ORD rank.. well for ENLISTEES..
I despise the idea why should CPL and below called enlistees.. like discrimination..
Officers, wospecs, enlistees???
CPL means very lousy lahz??
Maybe lohz.. One alphabet difference make alot of different.. e one with e O giv extras.. then the one with the P sign them..
Wooo..
Envious?? then sign on lohz..
Enough!! Enough!!

2007-08-04T01:30:00.000-07:00

Oh no.. Ill be having my CCNA2 final on Mon..
Hasnt been stayin awake during lectures.. Jialat lohz.. Duno any thing.. Duno how to sit for the exam also.. Haha..
YES!!! passed the radio test this week!!! O yeah.. tink i even scored full marks in the VRC 900 series.. Classified info..
o yes.. then kanna praised by the CDO on wed for being vigilant.. was doing guard duty.. prowling wif my buddy then we found that this gate was not locked..(dun ask me wich gate.. classified).. coms the sergeant hu in turn commed the CDO to come n lock the gate.. Sense of duty.. yeah!!!
Lionel ur blog is stil so boring.. haha.. zzzzzz.. canot tahan.. i reali dun understand y u feel so sianz... coz of the gal?? then i feel ur dumb.. coz of studies?? nah cant be.. future?? theres always another way out.. god help those hu help themselves.. didnt noe i can be so philosophical.. but haha..
for those hu r lost in love n r hopin to save the relationship or tryin hard.. ill tell u
爱情需靠挽救来维持，是不是已无可挽救了？
For those hu r stil feelin down.. its SOP..
爱情本来就不公平，爱人的人，总会显得卑微些..
Life is long.. look ahead.. esp my dear Ion.. if i can let go.. so can u all..
So all my dearest, how's life??
everybody nowgoes to NS.. Dun bother to answer calls le lohz.. like my dear Winson.. Call him so many times.. Even it is a non answered connected call.. he can stil CK sae i nvr call him.. didnt even bother to acknowledge.. CCB...
Life has started to become stagnant.. NOT MEANINGLESS.. there is always a meaning in life.. onli the pessimist cant c it.. hahaz.. everyday doing the same things..
YES SIR!! YES MDM!!! NO SIR!!! NO MDM!!!
but.. imstartin to forget the meaning of KNOCK IT DOWN!!!
when was the last time since i actually kanna KID?? haha.. in the old tekong days...
heihei.. tell u all wad.. my camp got tis LTA quite good lookin one.. Guess her name?? 3 tries to the ignorant.. N the winner shall gets a free drink.. but.. onli the first guy hu gets it cis eligiblefor the GRAND PRIZE!!
Good luck n take care..

Nxt critical timing: 24th AUG 2007

ISISISISISISISISISISISISISISISISISISISISIS

2007-07-24T19:13:00.000-07:00

yOZ.. HU IS lost??????? IZIT LIONEL??????
tink so bahz.. he oso lyke to use tis funny names de... so philosophical.. (did i get the spelling rite??)
it was not easy to let go lahz.. no lahz qi shi it was quite easy.. jus 1 sms n 5 days is enough.. come on lahz.. i m not ion lahz.. so kan bu kai.. he is a loser lohz.. haha.. ming nming noe no chance le stil wanna b so zhi zhuo..
In case of some pp..... hu dunno where i m.. I am posted to Stagmont Camp.. Vocation: Infosys Operator.. The guy who sits inside the computer lab doing networking n hacking... haha..
N i m going to National University of Singapore, Science faculty.. shld b takin math course bahz.. yeahz..
Jus had my CCNA exam.. Super difficult lohz.. those tt i prepared all nvr come out... super de sad lohz.. but stil managed to pass.. in case those hu is cursin me to fail.. N to ur dismay.. i even got an A.... haha...
Yuppie!!! Jackie's bunk is beside mine.. he is stil as bird as ever... haha... Oops.. A private canot suan a corporal.. SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-07-03T03:40:00.000-07:00

Hello.. N I m BACK!!!!
Haha.. haven't been typing for a long long time lohz..
I am typing this in camp!!! Life in army is good!! Super good.. Hi to the holy ones in GUARDS!!!
Into the mids of 2007.. Firmly put Snowy behind me, and ermz.. to some extent Boggy behind.. So quite, remz i mean i m veri happi that all is over..
Can now start to look forward to life once again..
Now then i realise Zhihao was rite.. She's reali not e type for me.. hahaz...
I m not like some proton, electron thing.. haha.. cant put wad that has passed behind him.. hahaz.. so much 4 obsession.. he is worse than me lohz..
hahaz..
So as of this moment.. I m single.. N have NO CRUSHES!!! Life is so good without this obsession thing!!!!
When can the lost find the right path??

JI SHI CAI JIE HUN??

2006-11-22T04:44:00.000-08:00

A levels has finally ended on Monday, signally the end of JC life.
kinda miss school. But i dun think i miss studies. Maybe the nonsense life that we had been having these 2 yrs. N perhaps the people and the unfamiliar gals that ,ake JC life an enjoyable one.
After FM on Monday, we were supposed to play soccer. Then god just had to play villian and rain. lol.. Went to Sakae for dinner, man did the food suck.
Went out yesterday with Jackie, Wins, Ion, Zidane, Eugene. Later joined by Yi Cheng. Watched Jamesy show. Feel it was quite a good one, although the ending was not world-class. Haha, maybe that it left for the viewers to figure out.
went to lan. Was supposed to play CS. Then some stupid and pathetic excuse was given and ended up playing world craft. Then nobody bothered to tell me what was going on, and i think nobody even knew that I ahve left the shop. Met up with Yi Cheng. Went pooloing. hahaz.. Daigo like free.
At Dhoby, saw 2 pp fighting. Shld be likely for a gal lohz. War has been started since ancient times because of women. Well.. pian Qian Ju Le Bu. hahaz.. got conned into buying pen.. But the gal is so hiao and then she reminded me of icey. So i should sae that I bought out of my own accord. Y did King Kong, oops Zidane buy, I dunno. E most PC ting is, aft he blamed me that I hai ta to buy the pen. So, its my fault?After that went Seoul Garden for dinner. Ion was KBing the whole time on how much money he had spent yes.. Veri dulan, so sat nxt to jackie. But somehow i felt the money was worth it, well mayb at least for me. Happi hours as frenz tgr. How much of these times do we ahve left?
First time i saw Eugene eat so much. My, am i surprised. Eug can reali eat!!
Saw alot of couples yest.. I am so ENVIOUS of them. starting to wonder when is it going to be my turn??
Angeline told me just to go for it, but she say have then jiu have mehz?
Maybe she is blinded by love herself, or mayb she jus had no brains. Sorie Angeline, i take that statement very seriously and am offended.
When will i get married????

Sorry

2006-10-25T07:04:00.000-07:00

I would like to apologise for my insolent behaviour earlier on.
I would like to extend my apologies to the English Department and Ms Darrell for my rude and ruthless comments over the success of NY's GP standard.
It is very bad of me to criticise the achievements and question the professionalism of the tutors. What I did was a serious moment of folly and it will not happen again.
Perhaps what I wrote has already done serious damage, but with this apology I hope that i can at least savour and rectify the problem before it gets any worse.
I know that I am old enought to understand the seriousness of this matter, and with that, I will end the problem from where I started it.
Extending a very apologetic apology to those affected, especially Ms Darrell, whom I believe I hurt real badly.

2006-10-04T06:49:00.000-07:00

Recently in the news was this scrapping of the EM3 thing..
Dunno whether izit good anot.. but i still forsee that it will not solve the problem..
Why was streaming imposed in the first place? It was to seperate pupils of different capabilities to suit their different learning abilities..
Scrapping streaming will no doubt bring us back to square one... Different people with different learning capabilities in the same class..
Weaker students will still be despised.. They in turn will be looked down by teachers as they pull the whole class's results down.. The problem of dicrimination and prejudice will still be there.. Well, maybe it will not be seen that clearly to the putside world..
Government officials come from top schools, sometimes i even wonder do they even understand students who are not as fortunate as them.. Meritocracy, isnt it?? In other words, its called filtering.. That is why there is ranking..
Scrapping streaming wont help.. Classes will still be set in such a way that Class A will be better than Class B and so on.. Raffles will still be the best..
one day, when there is no prejudice will see RI accepting a 150 score student and HCI accepting a 20 pointer..
Because of meritocracy, is the government managed to filter out the elites to help them.. But how many elites can there be? 1 out of 1000? 10000? what about the rest??? the thousands who are not considered elites?? The government then start to bring in foreign talents.. But why?? Brg them in to further wreck the ricebowls of the non-elites?? So the government cannot complain too much when people strated to emigrate.. "Losing talents to other countries".. What rubbish.. take the violinist for an example then.. Is 5000 bucks more significant than an Arts talent, or is he not born with a silver spoon in his mouth?? why not, as Mdm Tan says, just charge him with community service? This fine thing, how will the other countries look at Singapore?? Law?? Then why is Christopher Lee escaped unpunished(or maybe fairly) for drink-driving?
Prejudice or 'jie ji zhi fen', 'ping fu xuan shu' has existed since the civilisation of Man.. And the most ironical part is, no matter how Man improves.. The problem worsens.. Is Man really that great?? Not to forget, we are the 'plague' of the natural habitats..we are the destructors.. Terminators..

2006-09-27T05:17:00.000-07:00

Haix, got back the prelims today..
The results like shit.. Even worse than expected, so feelig veri sianz.. then now got this teacher's invasion into the students' blog.. Spare us a bit of private space lehz..
think i might even get into trouble with my previous blog lohz.. lol.. if the teachers wanna evade responsibilities..
wahz sianz got CCEO for prelims.. lidat how to go U? tink the papers i m proud of are Phy P3 and GP P1.. the rest can KS..
Haiz.. the math department.. ruthless.. Set CRV and the hypothesis for Section B!!! WTH!!! I tot Cambridge said that CRV and Hypo wont come out in Section B.. Even our Mr Leong said that lohz.. Then why is it there??? Is the Math Department trying to be funny???
Haix.. A bit sianz.. The problem is now when i look at the stacks and stacks of revisions notes... I tink of the shitty results.. it's an irony that we still score so badly even though we studied hard.. I witnessed how our class really worked hard for FM..but in the end, 14 out of 22 still failed.. 2 got 44.5, so can consider pass lahz??? Mr leong said that we may be lazy.. But are we? Winson and I completed RJC FM P1, MJC Math C P1, RJ, HC.. in 1 week... is this considered lazy???
I cant imagine the math paper was so tough lohz.. lol.. i tink my paper is like trash liaoz.. hahaz..
Realli tough lehz.. must watch my language.. Teacher watching... Scary.. :/
Well, Ms Darrell, if you happened to read my blog.. Dun worry so much.. No intention of offending.. Just food for thought.. Sincere comments.. Mayb e tone was harsh.. But that's me..
Today play soccer with 9B.. they chickens lohz.. Equalise liaox then dowan to play.. hahaz.. KS!!
1 more month to As.. Veri worried.. hahaz.. but wat can i do??? In NY, oreadi da 1/2 discount le.. haix... Shld hav stuck in AJ..
Once there was a saying.. PP in lousy JC worry how many passes they get while pp in top JCs worry abt how many As they wont get... Wat a vast difference... looks likely to repeat again this yr, huh??
Haix.. beta stop criticising liaox.. ltr get into trob.. these pp veri narrow minded de.. cant even take a criticsim.. must noe how to cong shan ru liu, then can improve de mahz.. dun always so si ban...

2006-09-21T23:46:00.000-07:00

Hello, veri happi to say that we have just finished the prelims..
tink u wil not do well, dun worry u are not the only one...
work harder for the A levels bahz..
less than 50 days remaining...
A long time nvr type le.. veri busy.. suddenly ask me to type again.. kinda lost..
not much happened this few weeks, so reali not much to write..

=}

2006-08-11T20:28:00.000-07:00

Life has been kinda dull.
Students piled and piled by stacks and stacks of assignments and tests and haunting us with remedial classes after class. With the impending fatal A levels, who can actually blame them, seeing how badly we did in the A levels. The worst part is, nobody seems to have picked up the mood in studying. All seem content to sian over the midyr results. Heard that this coming prelim will be difficult.. Wishing good luck to all first.
Monday was a horrid day. Snowy did not even come to school, and I had to wait in vain for her. Their kinda of feeling is so unbearable, so wu nai. Really believed that God was really making fun of me.
Tuesday, I finally got to gave her the present. Finally.
Then, this week, hey, actually turned out to be a happy week. =)
Had a chinese test yesterday. Was actulaaly msging Snowy during the test, talking abt how the invigilator looked like a donkey. =} Wrote shit for my essay. Spent onli 30 out of the 90 mins allocated writing. The rest, off to dream land.
Winson is still irritated abt Lami. He really doesn't know how to cherish the time they have together. Practically, I feel that Winson should stop whining and just cherish the time.
Typing a blog when you are in a good spirit really feel sianz..

P.S: Rumours circulate........... Snowy has a crush..........

XJB

2006-08-01T03:05:00.000-07:00

Less than 1 hundred days to A levels. Still struggling with studies, how can?
Love life is still in a mess.
Will be finally approaching Snowy next week, god bless.
H0 : Cliffy will be rejected.
H1: Cliffy will not be rejected
at 1% level of significance.
Reject H0 if (mod of Z) > 2.576
.....
Since Zcalc < 2.575, it does not fall inside the rejection area, therefore we do not reject H0. There is insufficient evidence that H1 is true.
That is so sad... Will that 1% be enough?
Seriously having problems with Darrell. Think she has given up on me. =(
Jack also know Snowy. Fate?
Believe another girl in NY is good looking. But this time, the mouth is sealed. Only Winni knows.
Mehz Mehz is a goner for Winni. Felt quite sory for him. Dun feel sad, brush up on your abitily to determine a girl's personality, and come back a better person. You still have Lami. Be brave and approach her. Do not consider so much.
Starting to believe the class is quite friendly after all, well maybe for some.
Starting to hate Chinese, dunno why, and I mean Chinese lessons.
heard from jack that Snowy had not changed all these years. Still the same looks since primary school.
He told me that he does not like Snowy. I asked him why. i got 2 words as reply,' Ugly lah'. Disappointing, yet relieved. Heard from people that Snowy is flirtatous, well I never denied that she looked like one, though I might get angry.
Pokemon culture flooding the class. Now we have Golbat, Arcanine and more. What will we have next? N i am Arcanine's trainer.

2006-07-26T03:24:00.000-07:00

Recently, everybody look kinda sianz..
1. Maybe becoz of the results?
2.Maybe becoz of love?
3.Maybe becoz of frenz?
4.Maybe because of the studies?
5.Maybe because of all the above?
If you belong to the above category, you are not alone.
You ask me which category I belong to?
I would say category 5.
All have not gone to plan since JC life begun. JC life is really a huge test in terms of character. As we begin to grow older, we are beginning to see more things, it means we start to get more troubled and as for me, I get more sensitive. Although I do not appear that way...
2 yrs of JC life will be over hopefully in 4 months...
4 months left = 4 more months to see Snowy = Heartbreak after that.
Really hurts when I think of that... Felt like the world is collasping..
4 more weeks to Prelims.. Still struggling with basic things... How can???
Less than 100 days to A levels.. = Less than 100 days of JC life = Less than 100 days of inhumane life = Less than 100 days of Snow seeing..
HAix, my heart gets broken again..
Thinking of emailing her.. Typed the mail.. Sent it... Then, her email got prob...
My heart sank... Beneath Titanic...
Is that really worth it? Ms Tong said no, Zhi hao said forget it.. Haiz, should I?
Any average looking gal that u can find on the streets... Is it true? or jus an axiom?
Havin trouble with Darrell.. Dunno y.. but just doesnt like her teaching methods and her incapabilities to produce results..
Feel that heaven is unfair..
Y are somebody borned wif good looks, some born smart, some born with a wife.. some born ugly, some born stupid, some born lonely.. Y?Y?Y?Y?Y?Y?
Iss this being fair? then y the irony of being faithful to god when he is unfair to u in the first place??? Worth it?
Life has been in a mess... Fell into a state of depression last thurs.. aft i went home.. was feeling so sad that i almost got knocked down by a car, and i am bloody serious abt that.. got depressed today too in the morning.. Really felt like.... haiz...
Studies sux, Love life finished... is there anything the almighty lord has failed to test me with???
sometimes, reali envy those lunatics.. their life, so free of troubles.. so carefree.. so nice...
Isit worth it to stay normal???
Life is a bore, life is unfruitful, life is demanding, life is a torture, life is not sweet (well, unless I managed to marry Snowy, but P(X=x)=0 Mrs TAn u r wrong!!!)...
Who dare to disagree???

选择

2006-07-18T21:04:00.000-07:00

选择

郁闷。坐在窗前的小愿不禁感到乏闷。

时已深夜，万籁俱寂，小愿望着黑夜的那洁净的月亮，是多么的温柔，仿佛在与小愿微笑。微风轻拂在脸上，似清凉似冰凉。

小愿油然想起了雪儿，脑子里正起着旋涡，她到底是不是我的未来？

表面上，其问题是挺简单，但又无比的深澳，他琢磨了很久，终究获寻不了答案，一个满意的答案。

白皙，俏丽。她拥有着一头乌黑披肩的亮丽秀发，中等身材，有着一副古代贵妃娘娘的仪态。乌黑的迷人双眼，挺拔的鼻子，玲珑可爱的樱桃小嘴，更是衬托出了她的美，是多么令他人无法不陶醉在其中。小愿是在今年才发现她的。

小愿被吸引住了。他不敢肯定那是不是爱，所以不愿去理会，希望通过时间的流逝而将此人忘掉，安心地过着自己的生活。

但上天不以为然，小愿亦时碰见她，深深地被其美吸引住了，逐渐堕落爱河中，想要自拔也都难了。

小愿天天都活在痴情中，好想跟着自己的心走，来一段轰轰烈烈的爱情，但理智却羁绊着他。不行！这不是谈恋爱的时候，况且脑子也不断提醒他勿可重蹈覆辙。但心灵战胜了理智，才子佳人戏丰富了小愿的灵魂，丰富了他的人生，使他对爱情执着，使他相信所有的爱情故事都能完美是结局。

他决定了，决定跟着灵魂走，追求西施。

但，他又犹豫了。原来他没勇气。

“加油！鼓起勇气约她出门。”无论朋友如何激励小愿，他始终无法鼓起勇气。就连面面相觑，小愿也觉得尴尬难堪。

这时他想放弃，但他知道他是爱雪儿的。

但他又油然想起了另一个更加棘手的问题－他不愿做第三者。无论他多么想拥有这份甜蜜的爱，他也不忍心去破坏雪儿现在的爱。心灵与理智再次交锋。他感觉好难受，好难受，仿佛上帝在作弄他。

一切都由命运来安排吧！小愿不想再去想太多了。

但是时间不允许命运来为小愿安排这段爱情。白驹过隙，时间很快就会过去的。
坚持，放弃，坚持，放弃… 这个连锁紧紧地绑着他，使他闷不过气来。

那晚，他独个儿坐在窗前，冷静地思考。他不愿让朋友的杂声在他脑子里喧嚷，他只想清楚地去想，好好地去想：

我知道我爱她，但是我是真的爱她吗？

这问题似乎有点矛盾，但对小愿来说，可是个关键。心灵和理智再次起了争执。

‘我为什么会爱她？是不是因为我贪其美色？到底什么是爱？就是喜欢一个人，那么的简单？不可能！那这爱也未免太脆弱了吧？’

‘我又了解她多少？我到底了解她吗？她是我的类型的女孩儿吗？白皙，洁白滑腻，没错呀，我就喜欢这类型的女生。但性格呢？一卷空白。所以这不是爱。’

‘你错了！’心灵不愿被击败。‘爱情可以使对方了解彼此，从中酿出真爱。’

‘那未免太冒险了吧？还是性格相依，方能成对’。

‘再如此抱残守缺，就要当个孤独的老太公了。’

‘这叫保守。’

‘保守？其中人都已寥寥无几了。你明明不就喜欢她吗，那又何必折磨自己？难道之前的教训还不够痛心吗？’

‘痛心？长痛不如短痛。今个儿就忘了她，以后的日子就好过了。况且她又不一定喜欢咱们。’

‘懦弱！你又从何得知？也许她在等着你呢？’

‘也许她根本就不知我的存在。’

也许，也许，不解的也许实在是太多，太多了。小愿不想在尝受到被拒绝的痛苦滋味，但又还抱着一丝微微的光，但又怕自己受不了第二次的严重打击，又怕自己不能给雪儿带来幸福，还在犹豫着雪儿是否就是他的白雪公主。

我们的性格完全是太不相同了，简直就是天壤之别。

太多的问题困扰着小愿。他越想越乱，头越想越疼，头发越搔越短。他不想再去想了，也不愿去想，终究决定，一切由上帝来安排。

隔天上学，小愿一大清早就到了学校，看见了雪儿独个儿的坐在那，痴痴地望这空气。

这就是上帝的意思？难道她便是随同我骑着骏马驰骋油绿草原的白雪公主吗？

这时心灵将理智完全压倒了，小愿迈步向前。

“嗨！”小愿好不容易才挤出了声音。

雪儿微微地将头举了起来，看了小愿一眼，“哦，是你啊？”

“你认识我？”

“哦，看过你，也不知怎么的，整天瞧见你。”

小愿忘了之前的尴尬，竟然和雪儿聊了起来。

“也许这是天意？”小愿轻声说道。

“亨？”

“没什么。我是小愿，兴会认识您。”

“兴会，我是雪儿。”

“我知道。”

“你怎么会知道？”

“噢，我瞎说，瞎说的。”

“你这人怎么这么奇怪的？说话都半听不懂。”

“不好意思。真不好意思。”

他们沉默了许久，小愿便问：

“能交个朋友吗？”

雪儿看着他，一时不作声。

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2006-07-09T23:51:00.000-07:00

ITALY!!! The new world champions. Hail!!!
Well, I did not dare to even believe, finally my beloved Azzurri would win the world cup.
Watched yesterday's match. Except for the first half, where clearly Italy were the better side, the second half's performance and the extra time do not merit Italy's victory. in other words, they do not deserve to win. But, France could have blamed themselves for their woeful finishing. Italy, only had 2 good chances in the entire game. one turned into a goal, one rattled the cross-bar. Full marks to Zidane for being a Dewgong. Really, I do not understand why the papers keep blaming Zidane for France's defeat. Is he really going to win the game for France if he were to stay for the last ten minutes? Except maybe for the penalty and the headbutt, bless me, where was Zidane the whole time? Blaming referees for not awarding him free-kicks. No doubt France were the better team last night, especially henry and Ribery and I believe that Domench was insane to take them out, and throw in flops like Wiltord and Trezeguet.
Italy certainly look bad last night. playing their usual defensive game? What nonsense is that. They were pathetic. If not for some top class saves from Buffon and splendid defending from Cannavaro and Materazzi, the world cup would have gone to Paris instead of Rome. Zambrotta was atrociuos. He simply had no answer to the French winger of Malouda. Most of French attacks started there because Zambrotta was most of the time, out of position and Cannavaro had to cover for him. Pirlo was a walking passenger last night, Toni, and Iaquinta looked lost and Del Piero was a floating dreamer.
But full marks to Italy for converting all their spot-kicks. Do they really deserved to be the world champions? Judging from their run-up to this final, yes. Judging from yesterday's performance, no.
Exams are finally over, and tomorrow will be judgement day. Saw Snowy after 5 long weeks. The success of the operation, the true success will be put into serious test and of course tat would be tough.
So let us savour the time we have left in nanyang.

2006-07-04T05:44:00.000-07:00

Hello, its already has been one week since the exams started.
Has not been smooth sailing => turbulence!!!
MAth, i still think that it is ok. Then the rest are goners.
World Cup is ending soon, and bless has England finally gone home. Brazil has been very poor, so I believed they shouldn't have made it into the quarters had Ghana been some other stronger nations. Germany has been impressive but their adventure will end tonight. Hope my beloved Azzuris will send them home. (the irony?!).
Operation Summer Snow is a huge success as I declare it as of today. No Snowy for the past 5 weeks or so, and I am still in good shape and am still living in Sengkang rather than hougang chalet.
Wanted to study for FM P2, but guess I am too lazy to even open the books. Leave it all till tomorrow. Still waiting for Winson's call, since 2 in the afternoon!! Then, there is Physics, my achilles heel. Well, leave that to tomorrow too.
The weather has been bloody hot these few months. Hoped that it would rain tomorrow, can release some of the heat off me.
Examz will finish by Thurs and reality will sink in next week. Wanted to get ABBC, but now can get APPP will be mightily impressive. P stands for a pass. A level pass.
Ok, for peoplwe who are still wondering why I despise that Southerner. Here is why. Hope you still remember that GD once asked me me to help him(or rather, it) to get him the CL books so he could pass to its tasteless female tortoise. Yup, I gladly agreed and after I had helped him, U guys know what happened. the cursed change in attitude. So, if it wasn't to be rated as a hypocrite, then what else.
Like what Hitler has said, 'they swarmed into OUR country and took the food from our mouths.'
Wonder if it still bother to find out what the rest are talking about him. Fancying him coming to school one day, and believing that it is still a 3 year old kid trying to be cute. Atrocious rubbish. think he should integrate himself into the losers' gang, and stay there.

Back to school

2006-06-23T03:18:00.000-07:00

Cannot stand some people. When they write a comment, they always leave those kind of funny names, and for curses sake, I do not know who the bloody hell they are.
Heard that Lionel has a problem with the guy from the south. Well, do not occupy your mind with somebody as significant as him. You still have other friends to cheer up the day. Forget about trying to bridge the gap, it is useless.
Finally, I know why I call that Gui Dan a hypocrite. I was not wrong and i am never wrong. Do not feel like typing it out (too lazy), ask me face to face?
I have declared this June as Operation Summer Snow. Whether has it been a success, I do not know. It was to rid my mind off Snowy, and not to let her bother my ineer thoughts, so that I can concentrate. Well, out of the 21 days, I dreamt of her thrice and thought of her twice, is it considered a success? Well, to a certain extent, I believe is yes.
Had the GP exam today. Bloody hell, it was so tough. Out of the twelve questions for Paper 1, I only know how to do Qn 11. That is man so pathetic. Then, the points I wrote are totally different from Winson. I have this kind of funny feeling that I might fail, because Winson used the points from his SOT, quite reliable. That means I am a goner.
heard that Maths is tough. The only chance for an A! So must begin to do practice this weekend. Cannot slacken off, or else the only A will just slip through my slippery fingers.
Watched a couple of Korean shows this holidays. Watched the 'Art of Seduction' and the 'Daisy' (Jeon Ji Hyun!!!). Well, they are quite nice shows. Especially Daisy, where it is so dramatic and touching. Don't watch it with an iron heart and you will know what I mean.
World Cup has been boring. No upsets at all. That is so not nice.
Dear Winson, I cannot prove I +U = love. It will take someone as smart as Einstein to do it.

2006-06-08T23:44:00.000-07:00

Exams after the holidays.
Need to study.
Lots of things to study.
All are tough to study. Math, Chinese, Physics.
What is a holiday?
Really a lot of things to study. And really cannot understand most of the topics, like waves, superposition, complex number, especially the argand diagrams and the De Moivre's theorem. Then, there are alot of things to memorise for Chinese. Integration looks easy and should be easy unless Mr Leong give those kind of shocking integration for us to do. Linear space should ne fine if Mrs Tan do not give anything out of the extraodinary. Chinese, Mdm Tan always give those kind of killer question or easy question with killer answer. Really stressed out just studying for the midyrs. Like that how to study for the A levels?
Really do not feel like studying but no choice so got to force. that is bad.
Saw the TYS for waves (not quite sure). A levels also test on Light??? Refractive Index, total internal reflections??? Went to badminton with the BMG yesterday. Winson did not come think he got sore throat. It was shit. Nobody felt like playing and Jackie was forever claiming that he was tired. Teng Leong kept complaining that he was bad at badminton, yet when i saw him play, he made me look like shit.
QN 1: Prove that 1 + 1 =2 (7marks)

let Pn be the statement n + n = 2n, for all positive integers.
when n=1, LHS: 1+1=2
RHS: 2(1)=2
since LHS=RHS, P1 is true.

Assume that Pk is true for some positive integers k.
i.e, k + k =2k

To prove that P(k+1) is true,
i.e, (k+1) + (k+1) = 2(k+1)
LHS: (k+1) + (k+1)= 2k +2
= 2(k+1)
= RHS
Therefore P(k+1) is true.
Thus when Pk is true, P(k+1) is true. -----------(*)

When P1 is true, by (*), P2 is true and so on.
Therefore by Mathematical Induction, Pn is true for all positive integers of n.

Since it is proven that n+n=2n
when n=1, LHS=1+1=2
Therefore it is proven that 1+1=2. =)

2006-05-30T07:04:00.000-07:00

这世界是公平的

走进讲堂，只见到同学们都已入座，小平和他的好友也都迅速找到了两张空着的椅子，便坐了下去。
小华轻轻推了推小平，说“A，你瞧谁坐在前头？”
“谁啊？”
“你就别装蒜了！雪儿不就在你的前面吗？
“嘘…别那么大声，小心给别人听到。”
小华逗着笑：“喜欢不就是喜欢嘛？有什么好害臊的嘛？像个女孩家似的！”
半个小时过去了，小平轻声地对小华说：“A，你不觉得闷吗？都不晓得老师在嚷嚷着什么。真是无聊到透顶了！”
小华精神地打说：“哈哈，我也有同感！但，我却与你不同，至少你有西施看，我没有。”
“你就别在逗我了。不然我们来听听她们再说些什么，好么？”
“好！”
小平与小华便抛开了世间一切杂声，专注地听着前面几个女生的谈话。听着听着，下课的铃声终于响起。
小平与小华收拾好了东西，走出了讲堂，这时小平的脸是笼着一层灰色的。小华察觉到了他知己的不快乐，便安慰说：
“别这样子嘛。”
“什么‘别这样子嘛’？换成是你，也一定会很沮丧。”
“无情的岁月必定嘲笑你的痴狂。好啦，振作些嘛。她也只不过是有个男朋友罢了，又不是世界末日。大不了再找一的新的心仪对象。”小华试着安慰着小平。
“振作？你叫我振作？你又何尝知晓我是找了多久才找到像雪儿？找到一个这么单纯可爱的女孩儿？童话故事破灭了，小华，破灭了啊!白雪公主的白马王子不是我！不是我啊！”
“那…”
“那，那什么？”小平就连给小华一个说话的机会也不给，便打岔了他。“再找？谈何容易！你以为每个人都像你有一个深爱着你的漂亮女友吗？”
“对不起”，小华似忏悔又似不烦躁地说。
“这世界是多么地公平啊！”
小华被小平这突如其来的这句话给愣住了。他们俩便默默地走上课室，两个都沉默在自己的世界里。
在课室等候多时的老师已经很不高兴，又见小平和小华姗姗来迟，更是怒火三丈。
“吴小平，张小华，你们可否知道你们已经迟到了吗？还敢慢条斯理地走着！”老师瞧见了他们俩灰色的脸面，又骂道：“怎麽才说你们两句就开始摆脾气了呗！不高兴就跟我滚出班去！”
二人听了老师的训话，立刻把之前的表情从脸上抹去，并向老师道歉：“对不起，老师我们下次不敢了。”
虽然小平心中是那么的不服，但还是勉强地摆出了一副歉意的样子，以免惹来更多不必要的麻烦。他油然想起了当时班同学，孙丞凌迟到是都没被责骂。小平心想：也许我是男的？
剩下的时间，小华和小平都静静地坐在课室里，但灵魂却被深锁在自己的内心世界里。
下课铃声阵阵响起，小平和小华都各自走出了课室。走在后面的小华叫住了小平，
“A!小平，等等我嘛！”
小平听见小华叫着他，但他不愿意睬应。
“刚才是我不好。我说话时本就应该经过大脑。伤了你的心，是我的不好，请你原谅！”
这时小平的内心十分的混乱。他不知道应该继续不理睬小华好呢，还是停下自个儿的脚步。最终，他作出了选择。他认为自己没有理由赔了夫人又折兵。
“快点儿，再拖鱼丸面就卖完了”
小华听了，不禁露出了欣慰的笑容，加快了脚步赶上了小平。两人有说有笑的走到了食堂。
“对了，我都忘了问你，昨天发回的数学测验，你拿几分？”
小平犹豫了一会儿，答着：“满差的，53分而已。回去还被父亲狠狠地责打了一顿。”说完，便把手臂上的藤印给了小华瞧。
“哎哟，真是可怜哦。我也只不过考比你好一分，回去时，妈妈连一声唠叨也没有，只是劝我要加把劲儿。”
“哇！你的父母真棒！”
“可不是！他们还说这个来临的假期，要带我到中国看万里长城和到英国观看英超比赛！”说着说着，小华还露出了得意的笑容。
“是吗？那简直是太完美了！我就连国也没法子出。爸爸失业已经有段时间了，家里经济也都出现了问题，快要连饭也都不能暖肚了，更何况是出国！”
“那你下个星期过年怎麽办？有新的衣鞋穿吗？”
“你说呢？”小平好不在乎地回答说。
“哎哟！那你真是可怜。我只不过因为上个星期妈妈不肯买那双值二百元的球鞋给我，我便怨上天为何不公。不然这样，我把几件新衣送给你，如何？”
“不了！虽然，我只能穿旧衣，但我却毫不在乎！你的好意我心领了。”小平充满着自气地回答说。
“小弟，要吃些什麽？”他们二人的谈话被卖面的阿姨打断了。
“两碗鱼丸面，辣椒少。”
小华和小平付了钱后，便把面端到桌上去享用。
这时，小华突然大叫了一声。
“啊呀！你的鱼丸怎麽这么小粒啊？阿姨也真是的。”
“你好麻烦哦你。鱼丸的大小本来就不均的嘛。”
“那也是，那也是。”
下一节是华文课，老师一反常态地绷着脸，同学们都噤若寒蝉地坐着，一声也不敢吭。
“今天，我要把上个星期的华文测验发回给你们。”
这时，大伙儿都开始兴奋起来了，私底下也都议论纷纷起来了。
小平对着小华说：“好紧张哦！我真的是花了好长好长的时间准备的。真希望能考好。”
“我何尝也没努力过？真希望能够哪个A！”
老师咳了一声，这时班上顿时鸦雀无声。
“其实，我也不知道你们兴奋些什麽。虽然说你们班考得不错，但你们还得再接再厉，知道吗？多一件事，那位考不及格得同学，请你等一下自动来见我。好！现在开始发回。吴恭正，非常好，80分！”
这时小华对着小平说：“不会吧？他在考试前临时抱佛脚，也都考到80分！太不公平了吧！”
“人家考好，咱们该恭喜他才是嘛。你岂可说如此？”
“小平，来拿卷子了！”
“接着是小华。”
小平拿了卷子正要回到座位时，听见了小华开心地喊道：
“好啊！90分！这世界是公平的！”
小平听了，看了看自己的分数　－　44分。

2006-05-25T20:58:00.000-07:00

Got hit back after the last blog. That is sad.
I wonder if some times people even treat what i say seriously. If not, then why get affected by them.
Dear Winson, sometimes the things i do and say reflects the type of mood that I am in. i do not believe in hiding my moods and tempers. So U have to bear with me.
Kenny also confronted me about the Connie issue. He is such a bother. He can speak ill abotu the whole world yet he cannot even take a joke. that is ironic
Dear Winson, it is Jolin Tsai, not Jolene. Do not get too obsessed.
Recently, I think i discovered that I might not even like Snowy, but it is just that I just wanted to have an eye candy. Well, that is not the making of an excuse, perhaps I really do nfeel this way.
Have been scoring badly for chinese these few weeks, really losing confidence in the subject.
Believe that the lyrics of 《左边》is very meaningful. Should go and read it.
Walked past Snowy just now. Believed that I acted very naturally. Didn't blush. Credit to myself and Wenji.
School com really sux, take a long time yet I still could not log in to friendster.
Sometimes, I kind of agree with Gui Dan as much as I despise him that 05S9C isn't that good as it might seem. Do not ask me why, or i think I will offend the whole world again.
Not much life this few weeks, have been studying. MUGGER!!! Well, no choice, mid yrs is coming. That means studying as least for stupid people like me.

2006-05-22T00:03:00.000-07:00

Recently found out that Snowy and AJ came from the same secondary school.
Then, if I am not wrong, their relationship is kind of jerky. Do not ask me how I know it.
Snowy is not as reserved as she seems to be, in fact I believe that she resembles Eugene in that silent killing. 冷血杀手.
Had SPA last Thursday, but i think I will flop, big time. Spend 80% of my brain cells thinking about Snowy, when I should not have to. Think I must really start to prioritise already. Or 无情的岁月将笑我痴狂.
Did not see much of her today. Think I kinda miss her. 一日不见如隔三秋. That is plain obsession.
Gui Dan did not behave quite well these few days, so I am not going to write more. In fact, he was even polite to me on Friday. 其意？
God knows why I am obsessed with Snowy? Well, i dunno. So is obsession an evil? Well, guess it is. 小人于女人难养也. Maybe that is enough to answer the obvious?
Then that Winson is so lame. What 'Xiu-er', 'Ci-er', etc.. Guess he is just plain obsessed too? Imagine he knows the girl he like yet still dare not confess his love. O, he is so weak. (Speak for myself)
recently, Kenny has been referred with Connie. Well, they kind of match.
Okie, i am very tired le. will stop. The school's keyboard is so difficult to use.

Still luv Snowy

2006-05-11T05:22:00.000-07:00

Will be talking about Snowy again. After a long break, it's time I dedicate this blog to her again.
For these 2 weeks, she was absent from school twice. Today, I even saw her taking one whole bag of medicine. Really felt sorry for her. THe most ironic part is that she is still taking chocolate blended. How could she?
To Snowy: Must really take care of yourself. Too much medicine is not good for the liver. And it hurts me to see you unwell.
She sat facing me in the canteen today. It made me feel kind of satisfied already. And the best part is that I notice that for certain periods she was glancing at me. What did her eyes say does not matter to me then, as I was bathing in happiness. Now that it occured to me that it could me the looks of despise that she has for me.
Am still praising myself for the wonderful judgement I possess when I dragged Lion down for lunch. There she was, sitting in the canteen with her friends.
Was very disappointed when I found out that Snowy is not going for the D&D. Really hope that she could go, and then we can monopolise the dance floor, with the most ironic part is that I do not know how to dance.
Really having mixed feelings about Snowy. I know I like her, but sometimes I just wish I can forget her. Sometimes, or maybe most of the time, I find that she is affecting me too much, that it really hurts my concentration. But, the problem is I just cannot get her out of my system. As much as I do not want to think about it, the worse it becomes. Maybe, this is a sign of obsession?
Weiyi once told me that our personalities clash. She looks like those kind of girls who are serious about their stuff while I belong to those eccentric type. Well, I do not deny that. But, I feel clash is a much serious word to use. Even for periods of time, I also shared the same sentiments with Weiyi. Snowy and I are not compatible. No use deceiving myself anymore, like what Zhihao and Weiyi said, we must face up to reality and not be cooped up in the fairy tale of ours. But, no matter how incompatible we might be, Snowy herself has already left a chapter in my life.
Yesterday, i told Winson that AJ has a quality that I do not deny. That is: we have taste in girls. =). Come on laugh, that is supposed to be a joke!!! God damn!

Sign off,
Yours lovely
Cliffy. (God damn, do not call me by this nickanme)

Still luv Snowy

Hypocrites should be exiled. Part II

2006-05-10T06:40:00.000-07:00

Gui Dan wrote something disturbing on his new blog post these days, and I feel that I am obliged to defend all who belongs to 05S9C.
He wrote about not going to the class photo. Well, if he thinks that the whole world think so great about him, then he is wrong. Question anyone, say except from his few friends, as what he claimed, nobody will mind if he is in the photo at all. He is not at all important, yet he felt so great about himself, which by itself is an irony.
If he really wants to be a loner, away from civilisation, he can choose to eat alone, rather than stick his big fat ass among us, in contrast, is a contradiction to his words.
I am sincerely disturbed by the fact that he said that 05S9C are just come and go friends. Let me improve your language, it is fair weathered. Who was the one who was beginning to show attitude to the ones ard it? Who started the whole saga of this cold war. People tried to get close and be good friends but any normal person person would get turned away by his cold shoulders. Who would still wish to stay behind to endure his cold attitude? No one would. So the ironic part is that he says that we are that kind of people.
He said he had it. But he refuses to tell us why? Just because we are noisy? No, that is not a good excuse. Still I prefer not to say we are noisy, I rather say our class is active. I rather not say Eugene is a loner but a shy and reserved person. if he wants to be a sadist, and the best part is he is not a scorpio, then even roses would look like shit.
I do not remember anyone that was hostile or unkind towards him. We treated him with the due respect that friends should have. But by making those statements, he is just betraying that trust. So, are we the ones who are unkind to him or vice versa?
Jackie was so nice to Gui Dan, and yet the latter says he does not treat him as a friend. So, who is the culprit here? 05S9C or the tortoise? You decide.
So, sober up, 'alleged' friends of Gui Dan. One day, you might just be another victim of this saga. Since he wants to be a loner, let him be. With this kind of attitude, he will find life tough and the one to lose out will be him not us.
He also talked about the unity of the class. Our class could have been united in some areas(like being rude to teachers!!!), but with spoilers like him spoiling the unity and causing the division of loyalties, how can our class stay united? So, who is the culprit here again in causing the upset of balance in unity? And he is blaming us for that! Isn't that defamation?
You're tired? Give us a break. Who was the one that gave up on this friendship? And now you are blaming us for this 'come and go'? Please reflect on your attitude, with this kind of attitude, who would want to treat you as a good friend if you are going to stay moody 6.5 days per week? So it is your attitude that caused all these problems, not us!! Be clear of that!

Hypocrites should be exiled

2006-05-07T03:33:00.000-07:00

Frankly speaking, I really did not know how to start writing.
Has started to despise one of my classmate. Hope that it is quite obvious enough. Well, he wanted in to be this way so let it be.
Was feeling sorry for myself that i still consider him a friend. Yet, he is a damn cursed up hypocrite.
Comes to class everytime with that stuck up face of his, shows attitude to practically everyone cant speak without his accent and carries that turtle bag of his.
Do not have to worry about him finding out, because maybe except for Zhi Hao, nobody can afford to play these type of games with me.
Comes into the class and waste the precious amount of oxygen that Man has. Wonder, why is he ever here?
I know he doesn't like me maybe i am too noisy for his liking, but most Singaporeans are rather outgoing and outspoken, if he doesn't like it, he can always pack up and get his ass back to where did he originated from. Since, he is so rich, it doesn't hurt much to buy a ticket. Or he could swim back using that shell of his.
Nobody owes him anything, if he doesn't like anyone of us, he should just tell us straight instead of doing all those hypocritical actions behind people's back. That is what i believe is an action of a 'xiao ren'. Since, he is not going to be bothered about what i say, I will obviously not be afraid that he will confront me one day. If he dares, I will take him head-on. I can be even more mean verbally.
Out and out he is a hypocrite, and the people that i hate most are hypocrites. Do they deserve to live in this world? No. They ought to be buried alive instead of wasting the already very precious oxygen.
Glad that I will be only be seeing his fucking face for another 5 months. That is somewhat a relief. If he wants to continue to act like a King, he can continue to do so. He will find out one day, that he will not have any friends and will be feeling even lonelier that spending a cold night on Antartic alone. Since, he is not cherishing others (even though they have attitude), why should people cherish him? I really question the judgement of those who still regard him as freinds. N one more thing, I am not stupid enough to not take notice of what is going on around me. Only stupid people who wrote that will be stupid enough to believe that others do not see through them. He is too shallow.
Get your cursed ass back to where you came from, we do not welcome you here.

Still luv snowy