Recently, everybody look kinda sianz..
1. Maybe becoz of the results?
2.Maybe becoz of love?
3.Maybe becoz of frenz?
4.Maybe because of the studies?
5.Maybe because of all the above?
If you belong to the above category, you are not alone.
You ask me which category I belong to?
I would say category 5.
All have not gone to plan since JC life begun. JC life is really a huge test in terms of character. As we begin to grow older, we are beginning to see more things, it means we start to get more troubled and as for me, I get more sensitive. Although I do not appear that way...
2 yrs of JC life will be over hopefully in 4 months...
4 months left = 4 more months to see Snowy = Heartbreak after that.
Really hurts when I think of that... Felt like the world is collasping..
4 more weeks to Prelims.. Still struggling with basic things... How can???
Less than 100 days to A levels.. = Less than 100 days of JC life = Less than 100 days of inhumane life = Less than 100 days of Snow seeing..
HAix, my heart gets broken again..
Thinking of emailing her.. Typed the mail.. Sent it... Then, her email got prob...
My heart sank... Beneath Titanic...
Is that really worth it? Ms Tong said no, Zhi hao said forget it.. Haiz, should I?
Any average looking gal that u can find on the streets... Is it true? or jus an axiom?
Havin trouble with Darrell.. Dunno y.. but just doesnt like her teaching methods and her incapabilities to produce results..
Feel that heaven is unfair..
Y are somebody borned wif good looks, some born smart, some born with a wife.. some born ugly, some born stupid, some born lonely.. Y?Y?Y?Y?Y?Y?
Iss this being fair? then y the irony of being faithful to god when he is unfair to u in the first place??? Worth it?
Life has been in a mess... Fell into a state of depression last thurs.. aft i went home.. was feeling so sad that i almost got knocked down by a car, and i am bloody serious abt that.. got depressed today too in the morning.. Really felt like.... haiz...
Studies sux, Love life finished... is there anything the almighty lord has failed to test me with???
sometimes, reali envy those lunatics.. their life, so free of troubles.. so carefree.. so nice...
Isit worth it to stay normal???
Life is a bore, life is unfruitful, life is demanding, life is a torture, life is not sweet (well, unless I managed to marry Snowy, but P(X=x)=0 Mrs TAn u r wrong!!!)...
Who dare to disagree???

选择

选择

郁闷。坐在窗前的小愿不禁感到乏闷。

时已深夜，万籁俱寂，小愿望着黑夜的那洁净的月亮，是多么的温柔，仿佛在与小愿微笑。微风轻拂在脸上，似清凉似冰凉。

小愿油然想起了雪儿，脑子里正起着旋涡，她到底是不是我的未来？

表面上，其问题是挺简单，但又无比的深澳，他琢磨了很久，终究获寻不了答案，一个满意的答案。

白皙，俏丽。她拥有着一头乌黑披肩的亮丽秀发，中等身材，有着一副古代贵妃娘娘的仪态。乌黑的迷人双眼，挺拔的鼻子，玲珑可爱的樱桃小嘴，更是衬托出了她的美，是多么令他人无法不陶醉在其中。小愿是在今年才发现她的。

小愿被吸引住了。他不敢肯定那是不是爱，所以不愿去理会，希望通过时间的流逝而将此人忘掉，安心地过着自己的生活。

但上天不以为然，小愿亦时碰见她，深深地被其美吸引住了，逐渐堕落爱河中，想要自拔也都难了。

小愿天天都活在痴情中，好想跟着自己的心走，来一段轰轰烈烈的爱情，但理智却羁绊着他。不行！这不是谈恋爱的时候，况且脑子也不断提醒他勿可重蹈覆辙。但心灵战胜了理智，才子佳人戏丰富了小愿的灵魂，丰富了他的人生，使他对爱情执着，使他相信所有的爱情故事都能完美是结局。

他决定了，决定跟着灵魂走，追求西施。

但，他又犹豫了。原来他没勇气。

“加油！鼓起勇气约她出门。”无论朋友如何激励小愿，他始终无法鼓起勇气。就连面面相觑，小愿也觉得尴尬难堪。

这时他想放弃，但他知道他是爱雪儿的。

但他又油然想起了另一个更加棘手的问题－他不愿做第三者。无论他多么想拥有这份甜蜜的爱，他也不忍心去破坏雪儿现在的爱。心灵与理智再次交锋。他感觉好难受，好难受，仿佛上帝在作弄他。

一切都由命运来安排吧！小愿不想再去想太多了。

但是时间不允许命运来为小愿安排这段爱情。白驹过隙，时间很快就会过去的。
坚持，放弃，坚持，放弃… 这个连锁紧紧地绑着他，使他闷不过气来。

那晚，他独个儿坐在窗前，冷静地思考。他不愿让朋友的杂声在他脑子里喧嚷，他只想清楚地去想，好好地去想：

我知道我爱她，但是我是真的爱她吗？

这问题似乎有点矛盾，但对小愿来说，可是个关键。心灵和理智再次起了争执。

‘我为什么会爱她？是不是因为我贪其美色？到底什么是爱？就是喜欢一个人，那么的简单？不可能！那这爱也未免太脆弱了吧？’

‘我又了解她多少？我到底了解她吗？她是我的类型的女孩儿吗？白皙，洁白滑腻，没错呀，我就喜欢这类型的女生。但性格呢？一卷空白。所以这不是爱。’

‘你错了！’心灵不愿被击败。‘爱情可以使对方了解彼此，从中酿出真爱。’

‘那未免太冒险了吧？还是性格相依，方能成对’。

‘再如此抱残守缺，就要当个孤独的老太公了。’

‘这叫保守。’

‘保守？其中人都已寥寥无几了。你明明不就喜欢她吗，那又何必折磨自己？难道之前的教训还不够痛心吗？’

‘痛心？长痛不如短痛。今个儿就忘了她，以后的日子就好过了。况且她又不一定喜欢咱们。’

‘懦弱！你又从何得知？也许她在等着你呢？’

‘也许她根本就不知我的存在。’

也许，也许，不解的也许实在是太多，太多了。小愿不想在尝受到被拒绝的痛苦滋味，但又还抱着一丝微微的光，但又怕自己受不了第二次的严重打击，又怕自己不能给雪儿带来幸福，还在犹豫着雪儿是否就是他的白雪公主。

我们的性格完全是太不相同了，简直就是天壤之别。

太多的问题困扰着小愿。他越想越乱，头越想越疼，头发越搔越短。他不想再去想了，也不愿去想，终究决定，一切由上帝来安排。

隔天上学，小愿一大清早就到了学校，看见了雪儿独个儿的坐在那，痴痴地望这空气。

这就是上帝的意思？难道她便是随同我骑着骏马驰骋油绿草原的白雪公主吗？

这时心灵将理智完全压倒了，小愿迈步向前。

“嗨！”小愿好不容易才挤出了声音。

雪儿微微地将头举了起来，看了小愿一眼，“哦，是你啊？”

“你认识我？”

“哦，看过你，也不知怎么的，整天瞧见你。”

小愿忘了之前的尴尬，竟然和雪儿聊了起来。

“也许这是天意？”小愿轻声说道。

“亨？”

“没什么。我是小愿，兴会认识您。”

“兴会，我是雪儿。”

“我知道。”

“你怎么会知道？”

“噢，我瞎说，瞎说的。”

“你这人怎么这么奇怪的？说话都半听不懂。”

“不好意思。真不好意思。”

他们沉默了许久，小愿便问：

“能交个朋友吗？”

雪儿看着他，一时不作声。

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ITALY!!! The new world champions. Hail!!!
Well, I did not dare to even believe, finally my beloved Azzurri would win the world cup.
Watched yesterday's match. Except for the first half, where clearly Italy were the better side, the second half's performance and the extra time do not merit Italy's victory. in other words, they do not deserve to win. But, France could have blamed themselves for their woeful finishing. Italy, only had 2 good chances in the entire game. one turned into a goal, one rattled the cross-bar. Full marks to Zidane for being a Dewgong. Really, I do not understand why the papers keep blaming Zidane for France's defeat. Is he really going to win the game for France if he were to stay for the last ten minutes? Except maybe for the penalty and the headbutt, bless me, where was Zidane the whole time? Blaming referees for not awarding him free-kicks. No doubt France were the better team last night, especially henry and Ribery and I believe that Domench was insane to take them out, and throw in flops like Wiltord and Trezeguet.
Italy certainly look bad last night. playing their usual defensive game? What nonsense is that. They were pathetic. If not for some top class saves from Buffon and splendid defending from Cannavaro and Materazzi, the world cup would have gone to Paris instead of Rome. Zambrotta was atrociuos. He simply had no answer to the French winger of Malouda. Most of French attacks started there because Zambrotta was most of the time, out of position and Cannavaro had to cover for him. Pirlo was a walking passenger last night, Toni, and Iaquinta looked lost and Del Piero was a floating dreamer.
But full marks to Italy for converting all their spot-kicks. Do they really deserved to be the world champions? Judging from their run-up to this final, yes. Judging from yesterday's performance, no.
Exams are finally over, and tomorrow will be judgement day. Saw Snowy after 5 long weeks. The success of the operation, the true success will be put into serious test and of course tat would be tough.
So let us savour the time we have left in nanyang.

Hello, its already has been one week since the exams started.
Has not been smooth sailing => turbulence!!!
MAth, i still think that it is ok. Then the rest are goners.
World Cup is ending soon, and bless has England finally gone home. Brazil has been very poor, so I believed they shouldn't have made it into the quarters had Ghana been some other stronger nations. Germany has been impressive but their adventure will end tonight. Hope my beloved Azzuris will send them home. (the irony?!).
Operation Summer Snow is a huge success as I declare it as of today. No Snowy for the past 5 weeks or so, and I am still in good shape and am still living in Sengkang rather than hougang chalet.
Wanted to study for FM P2, but guess I am too lazy to even open the books. Leave it all till tomorrow. Still waiting for Winson's call, since 2 in the afternoon!! Then, there is Physics, my achilles heel. Well, leave that to tomorrow too.
The weather has been bloody hot these few months. Hoped that it would rain tomorrow, can release some of the heat off me.
Examz will finish by Thurs and reality will sink in next week. Wanted to get ABBC, but now can get APPP will be mightily impressive. P stands for a pass. A level pass.
Ok, for peoplwe who are still wondering why I despise that Southerner. Here is why. Hope you still remember that GD once asked me me to help him(or rather, it) to get him the CL books so he could pass to its tasteless female tortoise. Yup, I gladly agreed and after I had helped him, U guys know what happened. the cursed change in attitude. So, if it wasn't to be rated as a hypocrite, then what else.
Like what Hitler has said, 'they swarmed into OUR country and took the food from our mouths.'
Wonder if it still bother to find out what the rest are talking about him. Fancying him coming to school one day, and believing that it is still a 3 year old kid trying to be cute. Atrocious rubbish. think he should integrate himself into the losers' gang, and stay there.