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Tuesday, May 30, 2006

这世界是公平的

走进讲堂,只见到同学们都已入座,小平和他的好友也都迅速找到了两张空着的椅子,便坐了下去。
小华轻轻推了推小平,说“A,你瞧谁坐在前头?”
“谁啊?”
“你就别装蒜了!雪儿不就在你的前面吗?
“嘘…别那么大声,小心给别人听到。”
小华逗着笑:“喜欢不就是喜欢嘛?有什么好害臊的嘛?像个女孩家似的!”
半个小时过去了,小平轻声地对小华说:“A,你不觉得闷吗?都不晓得老师在嚷嚷着什么。真是无聊到透顶了!”
小华精神地打说:“哈哈,我也有同感!但,我却与你不同,至少你有西施看,我没有。”
“你就别在逗我了。不然我们来听听她们再说些什么,好么?”
“好!”
小平与小华便抛开了世间一切杂声,专注地听着前面几个女生的谈话。听着听着,下课的铃声终于响起。
小平与小华收拾好了东西,走出了讲堂,这时小平的脸是笼着一层灰色的。小华察觉到了他知己的不快乐,便安慰说:
“别这样子嘛。”
“什么‘别这样子嘛’?换成是你,也一定会很沮丧。”
“无情的岁月必定嘲笑你的痴狂。好啦,振作些嘛。她也只不过是有个男朋友罢了,又不是世界末日。大不了再找一的新的心仪对象。”小华试着安慰着小平。
“振作?你叫我振作?你又何尝知晓我是找了多久才找到像雪儿?找到一个这么单纯可爱的女孩儿?童话故事破灭了,小华,破灭了啊!白雪公主的白马王子不是我!不是我啊!”
“那…”
“那,那什么?”小平就连给小华一个说话的机会也不给,便打岔了他。“再找?谈何容易!你以为每个人都像你有一个深爱着你的漂亮女友吗?”
“对不起”,小华似忏悔又似不烦躁地说。
“这世界是多么地公平啊!”
小华被小平这突如其来的这句话给愣住了。他们俩便默默地走上课室,两个都沉默在自己的世界里。
在课室等候多时的老师已经很不高兴,又见小平和小华姗姗来迟,更是怒火三丈。
“吴小平,张小华,你们可否知道你们已经迟到了吗?还敢慢条斯理地走着!”老师瞧见了他们俩灰色的脸面,又骂道:“怎麽才说你们两句就开始摆脾气了呗!不高兴就跟我滚出班去!”
二人听了老师的训话,立刻把之前的表情从脸上抹去,并向老师道歉:“对不起,老师我们下次不敢了。”
虽然小平心中是那么的不服,但还是勉强地摆出了一副歉意的样子,以免惹来更多不必要的麻烦。他油然想起了当时班同学,孙丞凌迟到是都没被责骂。小平心想:也许我是男的?
剩下的时间,小华和小平都静静地坐在课室里,但灵魂却被深锁在自己的内心世界里。
下课铃声阵阵响起,小平和小华都各自走出了课室。走在后面的小华叫住了小平,
“A!小平,等等我嘛!”
小平听见小华叫着他,但他不愿意睬应。
“刚才是我不好。我说话时本就应该经过大脑。伤了你的心,是我的不好,请你原谅!”
这时小平的内心十分的混乱。他不知道应该继续不理睬小华好呢,还是停下自个儿的脚步。最终,他作出了选择。他认为自己没有理由赔了夫人又折兵。
“快点儿,再拖鱼丸面就卖完了”
小华听了,不禁露出了欣慰的笑容,加快了脚步赶上了小平。两人有说有笑的走到了食堂。
“对了,我都忘了问你,昨天发回的数学测验,你拿几分?”
小平犹豫了一会儿,答着:“满差的,53分而已。回去还被父亲狠狠地责打了一顿。”说完,便把手臂上的藤印给了小华瞧。
“哎哟,真是可怜哦。我也只不过考比你好一分,回去时,妈妈连一声唠叨也没有,只是劝我要加把劲儿。”
“哇!你的父母真棒!”
“可不是!他们还说这个来临的假期,要带我到中国看万里长城和到英国观看英超比赛!”说着说着,小华还露出了得意的笑容。
“是吗?那简直是太完美了!我就连国也没法子出。爸爸失业已经有段时间了,家里经济也都出现了问题,快要连饭也都不能暖肚了,更何况是出国!”
“那你下个星期过年怎麽办?有新的衣鞋穿吗?”
“你说呢?”小平好不在乎地回答说。
“哎哟!那你真是可怜。我只不过因为上个星期妈妈不肯买那双值二百元的球鞋给我,我便怨上天为何不公。不然这样,我把几件新衣送给你,如何?”
“不了!虽然,我只能穿旧衣,但我却毫不在乎!你的好意我心领了。”小平充满着自气地回答说。
“小弟,要吃些什麽?”他们二人的谈话被卖面的阿姨打断了。
“两碗鱼丸面,辣椒少。”
小华和小平付了钱后,便把面端到桌上去享用。
这时,小华突然大叫了一声。
“啊呀!你的鱼丸怎麽这么小粒啊?阿姨也真是的。”
“你好麻烦哦你。鱼丸的大小本来就不均的嘛。”
“那也是,那也是。”
下一节是华文课,老师一反常态地绷着脸,同学们都噤若寒蝉地坐着,一声也不敢吭。
“今天,我要把上个星期的华文测验发回给你们。”
这时,大伙儿都开始兴奋起来了,私底下也都议论纷纷起来了。
小平对着小华说:“好紧张哦!我真的是花了好长好长的时间准备的。真希望能考好。”
“我何尝也没努力过?真希望能够哪个A!”
老师咳了一声,这时班上顿时鸦雀无声。
“其实,我也不知道你们兴奋些什麽。虽然说你们班考得不错,但你们还得再接再厉,知道吗?多一件事,那位考不及格得同学,请你等一下自动来见我。好!现在开始发回。吴恭正,非常好,80分!”
这时小华对着小平说:“不会吧?他在考试前临时抱佛脚,也都考到80分!太不公平了吧!”
“人家考好,咱们该恭喜他才是嘛。你岂可说如此?”
“小平,来拿卷子了!”
“接着是小华。”
小平拿了卷子正要回到座位时,听见了小华开心地喊道:
“好啊!90分!这世界是公平的!”
小平听了,看了看自己的分数 - 44分。

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Got hit back after the last blog. That is sad.
I wonder if some times people even treat what i say seriously. If not, then why get affected by them.
Dear Winson, sometimes the things i do and say reflects the type of mood that I am in. i do not believe in hiding my moods and tempers. So U have to bear with me.
Kenny also confronted me about the Connie issue. He is such a bother. He can speak ill abotu the whole world yet he cannot even take a joke. that is ironic
Dear Winson, it is Jolin Tsai, not Jolene. Do not get too obsessed.
Recently, I think i discovered that I might not even like Snowy, but it is just that I just wanted to have an eye candy. Well, that is not the making of an excuse, perhaps I really do nfeel this way.
Have been scoring badly for chinese these few weeks, really losing confidence in the subject.
Believe that the lyrics of 《左边》is very meaningful. Should go and read it.
Walked past Snowy just now. Believed that I acted very naturally. Didn't blush. Credit to myself and Wenji.
School com really sux, take a long time yet I still could not log in to friendster.
Sometimes, I kind of agree with Gui Dan as much as I despise him that 05S9C isn't that good as it might seem. Do not ask me why, or i think I will offend the whole world again.
Not much life this few weeks, have been studying. MUGGER!!! Well, no choice, mid yrs is coming. That means studying as least for stupid people like me.

Monday, May 22, 2006

Recently found out that Snowy and AJ came from the same secondary school.
Then, if I am not wrong, their relationship is kind of jerky. Do not ask me how I know it.
Snowy is not as reserved as she seems to be, in fact I believe that she resembles Eugene in that silent killing. 冷血杀手.
Had SPA last Thursday, but i think I will flop, big time. Spend 80% of my brain cells thinking about Snowy, when I should not have to. Think I must really start to prioritise already. Or 无情的岁月将笑我痴狂.
Did not see much of her today. Think I kinda miss her. 一日不见如隔三秋. That is plain obsession.
Gui Dan did not behave quite well these few days, so I am not going to write more. In fact, he was even polite to me on Friday. 其意?
God knows why I am obsessed with Snowy? Well, i dunno. So is obsession an evil? Well, guess it is. 小人于女人难养也. Maybe that is enough to answer the obvious?
Then that Winson is so lame. What 'Xiu-er', 'Ci-er', etc.. Guess he is just plain obsessed too? Imagine he knows the girl he like yet still dare not confess his love. O, he is so weak. (Speak for myself)
recently, Kenny has been referred with Connie. Well, they kind of match.
Okie, i am very tired le. will stop. The school's keyboard is so difficult to use.

Still luv Snowy

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Will be talking about Snowy again. After a long break, it's time I dedicate this blog to her again.
For these 2 weeks, she was absent from school twice. Today, I even saw her taking one whole bag of medicine. Really felt sorry for her. THe most ironic part is that she is still taking chocolate blended. How could she?
To Snowy: Must really take care of yourself. Too much medicine is not good for the liver. And it hurts me to see you unwell.
She sat facing me in the canteen today. It made me feel kind of satisfied already. And the best part is that I notice that for certain periods she was glancing at me. What did her eyes say does not matter to me then, as I was bathing in happiness. Now that it occured to me that it could me the looks of despise that she has for me.
Am still praising myself for the wonderful judgement I possess when I dragged Lion down for lunch. There she was, sitting in the canteen with her friends.
Was very disappointed when I found out that Snowy is not going for the D&D. Really hope that she could go, and then we can monopolise the dance floor, with the most ironic part is that I do not know how to dance.
Really having mixed feelings about Snowy. I know I like her, but sometimes I just wish I can forget her. Sometimes, or maybe most of the time, I find that she is affecting me too much, that it really hurts my concentration. But, the problem is I just cannot get her out of my system. As much as I do not want to think about it, the worse it becomes. Maybe, this is a sign of obsession?
Weiyi once told me that our personalities clash. She looks like those kind of girls who are serious about their stuff while I belong to those eccentric type. Well, I do not deny that. But, I feel clash is a much serious word to use. Even for periods of time, I also shared the same sentiments with Weiyi. Snowy and I are not compatible. No use deceiving myself anymore, like what Zhihao and Weiyi said, we must face up to reality and not be cooped up in the fairy tale of ours. But, no matter how incompatible we might be, Snowy herself has already left a chapter in my life.
Yesterday, i told Winson that AJ has a quality that I do not deny. That is: we have taste in girls. =). Come on laugh, that is supposed to be a joke!!! God damn!

Sign off,
Yours lovely
Cliffy. (God damn, do not call me by this nickanme)

Still luv Snowy

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Hypocrites should be exiled. Part II

Gui Dan wrote something disturbing on his new blog post these days, and I feel that I am obliged to defend all who belongs to 05S9C.
He wrote about not going to the class photo. Well, if he thinks that the whole world think so great about him, then he is wrong. Question anyone, say except from his few friends, as what he claimed, nobody will mind if he is in the photo at all. He is not at all important, yet he felt so great about himself, which by itself is an irony.
If he really wants to be a loner, away from civilisation, he can choose to eat alone, rather than stick his big fat ass among us, in contrast, is a contradiction to his words.
I am sincerely disturbed by the fact that he said that 05S9C are just come and go friends. Let me improve your language, it is fair weathered. Who was the one who was beginning to show attitude to the ones ard it? Who started the whole saga of this cold war. People tried to get close and be good friends but any normal person person would get turned away by his cold shoulders. Who would still wish to stay behind to endure his cold attitude? No one would. So the ironic part is that he says that we are that kind of people.
He said he had it. But he refuses to tell us why? Just because we are noisy? No, that is not a good excuse. Still I prefer not to say we are noisy, I rather say our class is active. I rather not say Eugene is a loner but a shy and reserved person. if he wants to be a sadist, and the best part is he is not a scorpio, then even roses would look like shit.
I do not remember anyone that was hostile or unkind towards him. We treated him with the due respect that friends should have. But by making those statements, he is just betraying that trust. So, are we the ones who are unkind to him or vice versa?
Jackie was so nice to Gui Dan, and yet the latter says he does not treat him as a friend. So, who is the culprit here? 05S9C or the tortoise? You decide.
So, sober up, 'alleged' friends of Gui Dan. One day, you might just be another victim of this saga. Since he wants to be a loner, let him be. With this kind of attitude, he will find life tough and the one to lose out will be him not us.
He also talked about the unity of the class. Our class could have been united in some areas(like being rude to teachers!!!), but with spoilers like him spoiling the unity and causing the division of loyalties, how can our class stay united? So, who is the culprit here again in causing the upset of balance in unity? And he is blaming us for that! Isn't that defamation?
You're tired? Give us a break. Who was the one that gave up on this friendship? And now you are blaming us for this 'come and go'? Please reflect on your attitude, with this kind of attitude, who would want to treat you as a good friend if you are going to stay moody 6.5 days per week? So it is your attitude that caused all these problems, not us!! Be clear of that!

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Hypocrites should be exiled

Frankly speaking, I really did not know how to start writing.
Has started to despise one of my classmate. Hope that it is quite obvious enough. Well, he wanted in to be this way so let it be.
Was feeling sorry for myself that i still consider him a friend. Yet, he is a damn cursed up hypocrite.
Comes to class everytime with that stuck up face of his, shows attitude to practically everyone cant speak without his accent and carries that turtle bag of his.
Do not have to worry about him finding out, because maybe except for Zhi Hao, nobody can afford to play these type of games with me.
Comes into the class and waste the precious amount of oxygen that Man has. Wonder, why is he ever here?
I know he doesn't like me maybe i am too noisy for his liking, but most Singaporeans are rather outgoing and outspoken, if he doesn't like it, he can always pack up and get his ass back to where did he originated from. Since, he is so rich, it doesn't hurt much to buy a ticket. Or he could swim back using that shell of his.
Nobody owes him anything, if he doesn't like anyone of us, he should just tell us straight instead of doing all those hypocritical actions behind people's back. That is what i believe is an action of a 'xiao ren'. Since, he is not going to be bothered about what i say, I will obviously not be afraid that he will confront me one day. If he dares, I will take him head-on. I can be even more mean verbally.
Out and out he is a hypocrite, and the people that i hate most are hypocrites. Do they deserve to live in this world? No. They ought to be buried alive instead of wasting the already very precious oxygen.
Glad that I will be only be seeing his fucking face for another 5 months. That is somewhat a relief. If he wants to continue to act like a King, he can continue to do so. He will find out one day, that he will not have any friends and will be feeling even lonelier that spending a cold night on Antartic alone. Since, he is not cherishing others (even though they have attitude), why should people cherish him? I really question the judgement of those who still regard him as freinds. N one more thing, I am not stupid enough to not take notice of what is going on around me. Only stupid people who wrote that will be stupid enough to believe that others do not see through them. He is too shallow.
Get your cursed ass back to where you came from, we do not welcome you here.

Still luv snowy